NowTODAY # 21 - What are the possibilities?

So the big problem when you have been locked in your apartment for 18 days unable to walk with searing nerve pain running down your leg, the big problem is how do you keep your mental facilities in place?  How do you even know what “in place” is?

I’m tired. I haven’t exercised in 18 days.  For most of my life, I have exercised at least 5 to 7 days a week.  I have the advantage of teaching exercise - Spin, Pilates, Yoga, and Bodyshaping.  But now that I am out of the exercise loop like I have never been out of the exercise loop, I am getting a bit LOOPY.

I now cry when watching ANY HUMAN INTEREST program on TV - even during American Idol when they were showing the personal struggles these individuals have gone through in their early lives,  - I am weeping like a baby.  

I can’t focus for long.  I was researching BACK SPECIALISTS online, and it was way hard to focus.  Crazy hard to make sense of it all.

I am tired.  Because of the pain, my rest has been restless, and now I feel that it is taking it’s toll.  Plus, the bizarre medications I am taking are making me even more LOOPY.  The world is slower, just sitting here.  The world is just sitting here.

So how can I deal effectively with what is going on with me?


1:  Accept what is.  

I am loopy. I am injured.  That is just the way it is.  So how in my looped out injured state can I get things done?

Take lots of breaks. Rest. Do a little. And then do some more later.  But rest.  Take those breaks.


2. Take time to brainstorm on possibilities, and then put some ideas in motion.

If the Doctors are not leading me down the path that works for me, what path do I need to go down?

Chiropractor - Physical Therapist - Acupuncture?  I don’t know, but I need to explore, learn and then make some new choices.


My rate of recovery is too slow.  It is just too slow.  There is another way - I have just not seen it or tried it yet.


3. Commit to being upbeat NO MATTER WHAT!   LOOPY DRAMA will not help me.  Normal Drama won’t help either.

Staying positive, staying upbeat, staying connected to my soul, my essence, even through this BUTCHER KNIFE PAIN, and the Loopy DRUGS, and the STUPID fatigue.    Commit to being positive and upbeat FIRST and foremost for then I can make the best REALITY-BASED choices, not DRAMA-BASED choices.


Last, but not least:

4. Get some help.  I hate to ask for help.  I hate it.  But I need to ask for help, from friends, family, doctors and medicals professionals.  I need to seek out the right folk, and ask for their help.


So there it is …  THE PLAN.


Wish me luck.

Ken WolfComment